I've been stressing over this wedding like crazy and I've got all the stress consequences to prove it. (Acne? Check. Skin disease that I'm apparently stuck with for life and chose to pop up now? Yep. Terrible sleep? Oh yeah.)
I'm trying not to lose track of the big picture. This wedding isn't just a big party, we're getting married that day. I'm going to be stuck with this kid for the rest of our lives.
Someone at work jokingly asked me who I was bringing to the office Christmas party (yeah, it's not even October and we're already talking about the Christmas party. Our parties are pretty rad and this year it will be at the JW downtown.).
I said, "I guess I'm bringing my boyfr---" and then I stopped and corrected myself.
"My husband. I'll be going with my husband."
Thursday, September 30, 2010
Monday, August 30, 2010
Things I still need to do for this wedding thing that you may have heard about
- Finish invitations
- Choose invitation mailing layout (include a parking info sheet, map and directions?)
- Send invitations
- Get dress tailored
- Buy rings
- Get Nick's outfit
- Decide on a final color/scheme/layout/decoration idea
- Buy decorations
- Decide whether butcher paper table runners with crayons/colored pencils is lame, cheesy or awesome
- Convince Mother Dearest to make a bunch of doilies
- Settle the cake/cupcake deal
- Schedule reception tasting
- Make sure Nick has his groomspeople settled
- Get (copies of) photos from relatives for centerpieces
- Schedule counseling session
- Decide on/buy shoes
- Something old = dress, borrowed = dress, new = shoes, blue = ??/shoes??
- Figure out jewelry
- Don't stress out
Thursday, July 8, 2010
Let's just say I don't feel like separating sentences right now
I have sunburn for the second time in my life and it sucks even worse than the first time as I am not 10 years old and have to work. At least I only have sunburn on my back, shoulders and knees unlike poor Nick whose face is red and peeling. I learned long ago that the first place I put sunscreen on is my face, especially on my nose and ears.
I've been sick for about a week now, just congested and gross and haven't been able to taste food for that entire terrible week. I was starting to think I wouldn't be able to ever taste food again (I had nightmares about tasteless Popeye's chicken and I cried a little) so I went into the bathroom with half a box of Puffs and emerged victorious!
Speaking of Puffs, how great is it to be a company that has become a household name. I almost typed Kleenex before realizing I bought Puffs (because the only Kleenex at Meijer were the ones with lotion which gross me out and don't have nice, pretty boxes (Great selling point, companies! You've got me down pat. I take these to work and I want to look stylish while I wipe my nose every five minutes.)) and I was thinking about proprietary eponyms. Kleenex, Jello, Google, Vaseline, Q-Tips, Frisbee, Band-Aid, Velcro, Thermos...even Hi-Lighter. It's very interesting how our language has absorbed brand names as actual words. Maybe I'm just watching too much Mad Men.
I took a break from wedding planning for a week or two because I was having dreams about it and stressing out. Now I'm just more overwhelmed because apparently invitations are to be sent out 8 weeks before the wedding (which is the last weekend in August and OMFG IT IS JULY ALREADY) and I keep having to explain to people that yes, I'm getting married, no he hasn't proposed. After 6 years, we knew we were going to do this, I don't need some hard consolidated mineral matter on my finger to know that it's happening. Also, Nick lost his job which means we will soon need a cheaper and less awesome place to live which makes me sad but means more wedding money which we seriously need because my parents have said in the past that they aren't paying for it because they paid for their wedding so I can pay for mine. Although my mom did offer to help out after I called to tell her Nick lost his job. And I might need that help after seeing the price of these places.
Have you ever planned a wedding by the way? I don't know why in the world people want to stretch these things out over 6 months or even over a year! I'm stressed out already and I only have to deal with this for 4 months. I talked to Nick about it and he got me to calm down and figure out priorities which immediately made me want to throw up but I'm getting things done, kids (while throwing up)! I'm not actually calling anyone (because it's almost 2am and I talk to people on the phone all day at work) but I've sent out emails and I have a few days off next week so hopefully I can get the hardest parts (ceremony and reception location) out of the way so I can think about food and food.
Oh and you asked why I chose October 23. The short story is, Nick and I both already had the day off. The long story is I wanted July or August but didn't realize that oh hey those are coming up soon and oh hey we don't have money that soon and Nick need a day he could get off of work (ha ha that was necessary). On my way to work a few weeks ago, I called him up and said, "What day do we have off in October? Let's do it then." He didn't realize I was serious and here we are.
Okay, this is getting long and I want to go watch another Mad Men before I hop in my oatmeal bath so I'll stop now.
I miss you guys. I'm sorry I don't call, work has been crazy and all I do is sleep and work. It's no excuse but there it is.
I've been sick for about a week now, just congested and gross and haven't been able to taste food for that entire terrible week. I was starting to think I wouldn't be able to ever taste food again (I had nightmares about tasteless Popeye's chicken and I cried a little) so I went into the bathroom with half a box of Puffs and emerged victorious!
Speaking of Puffs, how great is it to be a company that has become a household name. I almost typed Kleenex before realizing I bought Puffs (because the only Kleenex at Meijer were the ones with lotion which gross me out and don't have nice, pretty boxes (Great selling point, companies! You've got me down pat. I take these to work and I want to look stylish while I wipe my nose every five minutes.)) and I was thinking about proprietary eponyms. Kleenex, Jello, Google, Vaseline, Q-Tips, Frisbee, Band-Aid, Velcro, Thermos...even Hi-Lighter. It's very interesting how our language has absorbed brand names as actual words. Maybe I'm just watching too much Mad Men.
I took a break from wedding planning for a week or two because I was having dreams about it and stressing out. Now I'm just more overwhelmed because apparently invitations are to be sent out 8 weeks before the wedding (which is the last weekend in August and OMFG IT IS JULY ALREADY) and I keep having to explain to people that yes, I'm getting married, no he hasn't proposed. After 6 years, we knew we were going to do this, I don't need some hard consolidated mineral matter on my finger to know that it's happening. Also, Nick lost his job which means we will soon need a cheaper and less awesome place to live which makes me sad but means more wedding money which we seriously need because my parents have said in the past that they aren't paying for it because they paid for their wedding so I can pay for mine. Although my mom did offer to help out after I called to tell her Nick lost his job. And I might need that help after seeing the price of these places.
Have you ever planned a wedding by the way? I don't know why in the world people want to stretch these things out over 6 months or even over a year! I'm stressed out already and I only have to deal with this for 4 months. I talked to Nick about it and he got me to calm down and figure out priorities which immediately made me want to throw up but I'm getting things done, kids (while throwing up)! I'm not actually calling anyone (because it's almost 2am and I talk to people on the phone all day at work) but I've sent out emails and I have a few days off next week so hopefully I can get the hardest parts (ceremony and reception location) out of the way so I can think about food and food.
Oh and you asked why I chose October 23. The short story is, Nick and I both already had the day off. The long story is I wanted July or August but didn't realize that oh hey those are coming up soon and oh hey we don't have money that soon and Nick need a day he could get off of work (ha ha that was necessary). On my way to work a few weeks ago, I called him up and said, "What day do we have off in October? Let's do it then." He didn't realize I was serious and here we are.
Okay, this is getting long and I want to go watch another Mad Men before I hop in my oatmeal bath so I'll stop now.
I miss you guys. I'm sorry I don't call, work has been crazy and all I do is sleep and work. It's no excuse but there it is.
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Saturday, June 19, 2010
STD
Save the date, children.
October 23, 2010.
No, he didn't propose yet. Yes, we set a date with no "formal contract." Yes, I'm crazy. Yes, I'm planning it already.
I'll let you know when the big thing goes down (proposal, ring etc).
I just figured that if I'm going to get married by the end of the year, I should start planning.
(And I already know I'm getting married. A proposal isn't a surprise.)
I'm getting married for real. I'm more excited about this than I think I will be about the proposal.
October 23, 2010.
No, he didn't propose yet. Yes, we set a date with no "formal contract." Yes, I'm crazy. Yes, I'm planning it already.
I'll let you know when the big thing goes down (proposal, ring etc).
I just figured that if I'm going to get married by the end of the year, I should start planning.
(And I already know I'm getting married. A proposal isn't a surprise.)
I'm getting married for real. I'm more excited about this than I think I will be about the proposal.
Monday, May 17, 2010
#100
I recently was promoted at work and am now a supervisor. It means nothing except never speaking French again. Not really but mostly. I rarely speak French now but still get paid for it.
I decided that I cannot start a blog right now because I have no time, energy or willpower to keep something going like that.
Nick has agreed (and expressed on his own, to my parents earlier today) that it would be nice to be married by the end of the year. He has not bought the ring yet (or he is lying to me...hmm... (He stated that he won't buy it until right before the proposal because he thinks I'd find it/find out. (Also I think it's because he gets too excited with surprises and would probably want to propose the second he got the ring (This has happened with many a Christmas present. It's adorable but the kid doesn't understand Christmas magic.)))) but has said that he knows when and how the proposal will go down. So keep the rest of the year open, ladies!
Nick's little sister is pregnant. The one whose wedding I was in back in October 2008. I thought I'd be jealous when this happened or upset but when I found out, I was so incredibly happy (and still am). It's a baby! A baby that I can play with and spoil and babysit and take care of and then give back. I am so excited. Nick's family is so adorable, they immediately bought tons of baby clothes, accessories, books etc. This is the first baby in the family in a long time. Nick said we'll use this as a test drive. This baby will probably determine if our baby timeline is moved forward, moved back or stays where it is. I am very excited. This is also the closest I have been to a pregnancy (personal relationship- and geographical location -wise) since I starting being all baby crazy and super aware of my imminent family timeline. So this is a lesson for me too. Have I mentioned how excited I am?
It is 5:30 AM and I can hear birds waking up. I don't have to work until 3:30 this afternoon. I love working second shift.
I'll hopefully be back more often. We will see. Also, I owe you all a bunch of phone calls and birthday wishes. I'm sorry. Love you kids.
I decided that I cannot start a blog right now because I have no time, energy or willpower to keep something going like that.
Nick has agreed (and expressed on his own, to my parents earlier today) that it would be nice to be married by the end of the year. He has not bought the ring yet (or he is lying to me...hmm... (He stated that he won't buy it until right before the proposal because he thinks I'd find it/find out. (Also I think it's because he gets too excited with surprises and would probably want to propose the second he got the ring (This has happened with many a Christmas present. It's adorable but the kid doesn't understand Christmas magic.)))) but has said that he knows when and how the proposal will go down. So keep the rest of the year open, ladies!
Nick's little sister is pregnant. The one whose wedding I was in back in October 2008. I thought I'd be jealous when this happened or upset but when I found out, I was so incredibly happy (and still am). It's a baby! A baby that I can play with and spoil and babysit and take care of and then give back. I am so excited. Nick's family is so adorable, they immediately bought tons of baby clothes, accessories, books etc. This is the first baby in the family in a long time. Nick said we'll use this as a test drive. This baby will probably determine if our baby timeline is moved forward, moved back or stays where it is. I am very excited. This is also the closest I have been to a pregnancy (personal relationship- and geographical location -wise) since I starting being all baby crazy and super aware of my imminent family timeline. So this is a lesson for me too. Have I mentioned how excited I am?
It is 5:30 AM and I can hear birds waking up. I don't have to work until 3:30 this afternoon. I love working second shift.
I'll hopefully be back more often. We will see. Also, I owe you all a bunch of phone calls and birthday wishes. I'm sorry. Love you kids.
Monday, February 1, 2010
Blah-g
I do not know what I will blog about.
I am not interesting or particularly funny. All the blogs I read now are fashion, gossip, parenthood or wedding based. Or adorable pictures of animals to make me happy.
None of which I am any sort of expert on.
I was thinking of doing my Bible a Day and Qur'an a Day adventures on a real blog but Nick said it might just be weird and religion is always tense. And since that's more of a self-exploration than a sharing thing anyway, I agree with Nick.
So I don't know. It might just be a blog. And then we'll see how it goes. Nothing is going to start until I get a good name going anyway. I'm thinking of twisting Nick's last name into something awesome.
I just need a hobby. And since I can't craft and can barely bake but love writing, this seems perfect. It's an escape.
I am not interesting or particularly funny. All the blogs I read now are fashion, gossip, parenthood or wedding based. Or adorable pictures of animals to make me happy.
None of which I am any sort of expert on.
I was thinking of doing my Bible a Day and Qur'an a Day adventures on a real blog but Nick said it might just be weird and religion is always tense. And since that's more of a self-exploration than a sharing thing anyway, I agree with Nick.
So I don't know. It might just be a blog. And then we'll see how it goes. Nothing is going to start until I get a good name going anyway. I'm thinking of twisting Nick's last name into something awesome.
I just need a hobby. And since I can't craft and can barely bake but love writing, this seems perfect. It's an escape.
Saturday, January 30, 2010
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Did not get new position at NewJob. My supervisor was so nice about it and sent me encouraging emails.
Nick and I talked about realistic goals. He said I should start a blog. A real one. Which is something I've been thinking about doing for a while, I just thought it was silly.
So as soon as I think of a neat name and something to write about, I will be a blogger.
Nick and I talked about realistic goals. He said I should start a blog. A real one. Which is something I've been thinking about doing for a while, I just thought it was silly.
So as soon as I think of a neat name and something to write about, I will be a blogger.
Monday, January 25, 2010
I've been in a super bad funk for about a week and a half. I thought it would go away once my period did but nope.
I'm just so tired of where I'm at. I applied for another position at work before Christmas and I still haven't heard back on it.
I'm so upset that I don't have the life I want to have. I'm irrationally angry about other people being engaged when I'm not. And I'm upset that I might not be married this year. For some reason.
There's really no reason for me to be this upset or depressed. I just am. I hope this goes away in a little bit because I'm seriously considering just going crazy and fixing it the easy way... by getting rid of NewJob. But in a state with an employment rate of almost 15%, I know it's a terrible, terrible idea. We've been pretty poor lately as it is.
I'll keep you posted.
I'm just so tired of where I'm at. I applied for another position at work before Christmas and I still haven't heard back on it.
I'm so upset that I don't have the life I want to have. I'm irrationally angry about other people being engaged when I'm not. And I'm upset that I might not be married this year. For some reason.
There's really no reason for me to be this upset or depressed. I just am. I hope this goes away in a little bit because I'm seriously considering just going crazy and fixing it the easy way... by getting rid of NewJob. But in a state with an employment rate of almost 15%, I know it's a terrible, terrible idea. We've been pretty poor lately as it is.
I'll keep you posted.
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
For serious
Nick and I were talking about getting married this weekend and he mentioned that it probably won't happen this year.
For some reason I got really upset. If I don't get married this summer, I know I'm going to be disappointed. I'm already upset about it.
I decided I'm going to start planning. I'll get the costs all together and lay it out for him.
Did I tell you we looked at rings the other day? I fell in love with one but it was $2800. So then I was depressed for about a month.
This is happening. Weekend project.
P.S. Birthday month.
For some reason I got really upset. If I don't get married this summer, I know I'm going to be disappointed. I'm already upset about it.
I decided I'm going to start planning. I'll get the costs all together and lay it out for him.
Did I tell you we looked at rings the other day? I fell in love with one but it was $2800. So then I was depressed for about a month.
This is happening. Weekend project.
P.S. Birthday month.
Sunday, January 10, 2010
Cross-post...because I cannot write two separate posts
I just watched Return to Me and then played some Assassin's Creed. I now have the world's strongest yearning to go back to Italy. Seriously.
I think Italian will be my next language to learn. After I finish my current goals, of course.
Oh, here are my New Year's whatevers:
(Check out that underline, this is official, kids.)
Read the Bible (that I've had since third grade) and blah-g about it.
Read the Qur'an (that I received from the wonderful CAIR) and blah-g about it.
Find a church that I like (and actually go and check it out) at least once a month (current prospects: Fountain Street Church and Grand Rapids Friends).
Get married (ha ha).
I think Italian will be my next language to learn. After I finish my current goals, of course.
Oh, here are my New Year's whatevers:
(Check out that underline, this is official, kids.)
Read the Bible (that I've had since third grade) and blah-g about it.
Read the Qur'an (that I received from the wonderful CAIR) and blah-g about it.
Find a church that I like (and actually go and check it out) at least once a month (current prospects: Fountain Street Church and Grand Rapids Friends).
Get married (ha ha).
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